So much I want to say about the last year, we have missed you so much and making big decisions on my own has been hard, but I know you would want me to move forward. I would give anything for you to 'whined me up' as you used to on a daily basis, just to get a reaction, which I always did, but hey ho. It will not get better, but I am sure things become easier. Love you dearly Jenxxx